One such compromise, he now admits, was the decision to appoint Golan Cipel - an Israel citizen with whom McGreevey claims to have had a consensual affair - to the position of special counsel to the governor on homeland security.

During his talk, he also acknowledged that being in politics intensified his desire to hide his true self in order to gain acceptance and led him to engage in an affair "in the most morally bankrupt of circumstances."

"This is not how you're supposed to do it," he said of his secret life. "How you're supposed to do it is with love, honesty and with self acceptance."

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